Rich Single Life
So it’s been quite a while since I have felt like writing anything on here. In fact, I had forgotten all about this blog I created. I guess life gets busy and in some ways people change and move on.
It’s not often I experience bouts of loneliness or sadness. I’m generally a happy, positive person and I always, to the best of my ability, see the good in everything. I believe everything happens for a reason. The way we handle choices, circumstances, and life’s heartaches tells a lot about who we are as a person.
Today, I felt incredibly lonely. To give you a little perspective, I am one of only a couple people in my circle of friends still single. My friends are married, have kids and they are great parents and spouses. I am extremely understanding, knowing that family comes before friends. I am truly happy that they have this wonderful, crazy life with love and laughter. I know it’s not perfect by any means, I know there’s moments of sadness, pain, frustration, and exhaustion. However, it is a life I have always wanted.
Don’t get me wrong, being single can be great. There’s a lot of freedom involved. I don’t have to worry about kids or a husband. I can come and go as I please. Frankly I’ve become quite accustomed to making decisions on a whim without regard for others. For the most part, being single is not so bad. Then, days like today, there are moments of extreme sadness, loneliness, questioning if I’ll ever get married. I think to some extent, my family and friends have no idea what it’s like to be single in today’s world. I’m not sure they understand how hard it can be watching them live this wonder life and I feel I have no one to share mine. Sometimes I think they forget I’m alone. ALL. THE. TIME.
My hometown has a wonderful festival every year. Usually, I meet up with my best friend and I’ll spend the day with her family. Today was different. My friend couldn’t meet up with me. I texted another friend and while she was there, she didn’t stay. She had to get her kids home. I texted another friend and she was at work. I messaged a fourth friend, and she had already been to the festival and wouldn’t return until the following day. So there I was alone and I was overwhelmed with sadness.
I do not expect my friends to drop everything for me. They have families and I don’t expect them to think of me first or even second. However, it would be nice if they would at least acknowledge my existence. Text me once in a while. Ask me how I am, or even offer to include me. It often doesn’t work that way for me. I know we are in different places in life and life isn’t about me. I don’t want it to be. I would like to, however, be thought about.
I am not blasting my friends by any means. They are great, wonderful, kind, loving people. I just don’t have their life. I don’t have kids or soccer games, ballet lessons or date nights. So sometimes it almost feels I have nothing at all. I don’t want to be pitied. I just want to be heard and understood.
With all that said, in spite of the these fleeting moments of sadness, I have a rich Single life. I’m blessed to have so many wonderful people that I’ve known then almost my entire life. I couldn’t imagine life without them. At the end of the day I know they will be there for me if I ask them to. We’ve experienced happiness, sadness, love, pain, and every emotion in between. And I love them. So no matter how lonely I feel sometimes I know God has given me the best group of people to experience this life even if sometimes it feels they are not around. My life is full of laughter and celebrations. I have developed a love for the gym and cycling. I have a wonderful career as an interpreter. And I have a terrific family. This, people, this right here, is life. In spite of it all the drama and chaos, feelings and even moments of loneliness, I truly do have a rich single life.
It’s not often I experience bouts of loneliness or sadness. I’m generally a happy, positive person and I always, to the best of my ability, see the good in everything. I believe everything happens for a reason. The way we handle choices, circumstances, and life’s heartaches tells a lot about who we are as a person.
Today, I felt incredibly lonely. To give you a little perspective, I am one of only a couple people in my circle of friends still single. My friends are married, have kids and they are great parents and spouses. I am extremely understanding, knowing that family comes before friends. I am truly happy that they have this wonderful, crazy life with love and laughter. I know it’s not perfect by any means, I know there’s moments of sadness, pain, frustration, and exhaustion. However, it is a life I have always wanted.
Don’t get me wrong, being single can be great. There’s a lot of freedom involved. I don’t have to worry about kids or a husband. I can come and go as I please. Frankly I’ve become quite accustomed to making decisions on a whim without regard for others. For the most part, being single is not so bad. Then, days like today, there are moments of extreme sadness, loneliness, questioning if I’ll ever get married. I think to some extent, my family and friends have no idea what it’s like to be single in today’s world. I’m not sure they understand how hard it can be watching them live this wonder life and I feel I have no one to share mine. Sometimes I think they forget I’m alone. ALL. THE. TIME.
My hometown has a wonderful festival every year. Usually, I meet up with my best friend and I’ll spend the day with her family. Today was different. My friend couldn’t meet up with me. I texted another friend and while she was there, she didn’t stay. She had to get her kids home. I texted another friend and she was at work. I messaged a fourth friend, and she had already been to the festival and wouldn’t return until the following day. So there I was alone and I was overwhelmed with sadness.
I do not expect my friends to drop everything for me. They have families and I don’t expect them to think of me first or even second. However, it would be nice if they would at least acknowledge my existence. Text me once in a while. Ask me how I am, or even offer to include me. It often doesn’t work that way for me. I know we are in different places in life and life isn’t about me. I don’t want it to be. I would like to, however, be thought about.
I am not blasting my friends by any means. They are great, wonderful, kind, loving people. I just don’t have their life. I don’t have kids or soccer games, ballet lessons or date nights. So sometimes it almost feels I have nothing at all. I don’t want to be pitied. I just want to be heard and understood.
With all that said, in spite of the these fleeting moments of sadness, I have a rich Single life. I’m blessed to have so many wonderful people that I’ve known then almost my entire life. I couldn’t imagine life without them. At the end of the day I know they will be there for me if I ask them to. We’ve experienced happiness, sadness, love, pain, and every emotion in between. And I love them. So no matter how lonely I feel sometimes I know God has given me the best group of people to experience this life even if sometimes it feels they are not around. My life is full of laughter and celebrations. I have developed a love for the gym and cycling. I have a wonderful career as an interpreter. And I have a terrific family. This, people, this right here, is life. In spite of it all the drama and chaos, feelings and even moments of loneliness, I truly do have a rich single life.
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