The Journey

Verb - from the Latin verbum meaning word , is a word ( part of speech ) that in syntax conveys an action ( bring , read , walk , run , learn ), or a state of being ( be , exist , stand ). A verb has two meanings; One, it is an action and two, it is a state of being. I don't think it is enough to just "be" or "exist," you need to be in action and take action in your life. A few posts ago I stated that when I turned 18, I thought my life would take me places. Well, you can't go anywhere in life if you don't take action. I spent most of my 20's waiting for my life to start. Silly me, life doesn't wait for you. Time goes by so fast and we only have one life to make a difference. You need to be a verb and take action in all you do. It isn't enough to think about a change or to wish for things to be different, you have to DO something. You have the power within yourself to be all that you have ever hoped or even dared to dream. Thomas Jef...

I was thinking about skipping a post tonight because I couldn't really think of anything to talk about. My life and stories usually become more interesting when school starts. Since it's still summer, things tend to slow down. However, I thought of something that I think is a good topic. I was listening to the radio on my way home today and their topic was about things that you have experienced that was totally amazing. Many callers told about things that was simply amazing, but one story in particular stuck out to me. A mother called and was talking about her daughter who is legally blind and she played softball from about 5 years old until this year at 12 and this coming school year she plans to join the track team. The radio personality asked, "How does she do that?" The mother replied, "I honestly don't know. When she decides to do something, she does it. Nothing stops her." Of course by now, my eyes were welling up and I was thinking that's am...

I think some people think it may be too late for them to make a change that will make their lives better. Or, they are afraid of what that change will make them realize about themselves. Change doesn't always have to be a bad thing; it can actually be quite refreshing. It doesn't matter what things you may have done in the past. You may have regrets, but those regrets do not have to dictate your future. I know that it is easier said than done, but it isn't impossible. Every day is a new day to start over. It is a chance for you to wake up and say, "Hey, I will do______ this today." Or, "Hey, I am making a decision right here, right now not to do___________." Do you realize that you do have a choice to decide that you can have a great life? Do you realize that the more you let your past regrets control you the less you will be happy? Happiness is a choice, not a feeling. Will everyday be like cupcakes and rainbows? No. However, how you deal with life...

I see now why so many newly graduated high school students go away for college. It really is a chance to find yourself. It's a chance to experience things you would never experience in your own comfort zone. I think God knew that. No matter how much I fought moving here, it really was the best thing for me. I lived near two universities and a community college, and of course none of them offered anything ASL related other than a couple of classes. I think God wanted me out of my comfort zone, out of everything familiar to show me life beyond the Eastern Shore. I absolutely LOVE the Eastern Shore, and there is no better feeling than when I cross that Bay Bridge. I probably would not have moved unless God had intervened and specifically said, "Go to Baltimore." Which is essentially what happened. I wasn't happy with where I was in life, and God knew that. I have learned a lot being on my own. There are some things that I wish I wouldn't have to experience, such as...

Now that you know how got here to Baltimore, I will say a little about my life as a college student. Being a student in my 30's has it's own challenges. For instance, due to the economy and always having to wait for my student loans, I decided to look for some scholarships this semester. Yeah, right. Unless you are 18, finding scholarships is practically impossible. Thus, my reasons for always doing the student loans. When I decided to go to college, I absolutely had to not think in terms of how much I owe or will owe when I graduate. If you are thinking about going to school or going back to school, make short term goals.  It was mandatory that I took this class that helps new students adjust to being in college. I thought this was a dumb class for me because I was 27 and I had life experience, work experience, and I thought I knew about time management. Well, it turns out that I did learn something. I learned that it is important to make short term, mid term and long term g...

Moving here has presented itself with many challenges. When I first moved here I lived in an old farm house that had been converted to apartments. The rent was cheap and I knew the owners. The majority of the time there I lived on the Third floor... that's two (2) flights of stairs. Everything about that apartment was a challenge. Taking groceries in, carrying my school books or practically anything felt like climbing Mt. Everest. Speaking of groceries, I remember one time I had gone to the grocery store and I bought some milk. That milk was in a standard plastic grocery bag. I had other stuff too, but my goal was to get all my stuff up two flights of stairs in one trip. As I was half way up the first set of stairs that wonderfully made plastic grocery bag broke. No it wasn't the bread or anything in a box, it was the milk. There was a huge mess and I had to race up to my apartment and grab all of the paper towels I could find to clean up the white liquid that had covered the f...

Like I said before, I grew up in a small town. However, that didn't mean that I didn't have big dreams for myself. I am a self proclaimed daydreamer. Which probably explains a lot of my procrastination tendoncies. All throughout elementary and high school I would just daydream. Daydream about graduation, going to college (I liked the idea of college, but not the work), getting married, having a family, etc. I couldn't wait to grow up and start my life. I thought when I turned 18 my life was going to take me places, but I quickly found out it didn't. As much as I loved Crisfield, the town wasn't exactly abounding in job opportunities. I tried college for two whole semesters in 2000, but I wasn't exactly "college material" at the time. I was young, nieve, and wasn't ready to commit to a career in higher education. Fast forward to 2006-2007, I was totally miserable. I was experiencing burn out of the utmost proportions. I was working with kids what ...

Hello people out there in cyber space! It's just me, another internet junkie. I recently decided to take a stab at blogging. I thought it would be nice, mostly for myself, to track my progress in life's journey. I am a 30 year old college student who works full time, goes to school at night, takes care of two precocious cats and tries to visit my hometown as often as possible. I think of myself as someone who is a late bloomer. I didn't go to college after high school because I thought it was a waste of money - and I couldn't afford it. However, in this day and age a degree is pretty much mandatory to get a good paying job. I grew up in a small town of about 2,800 people and I love it there. I hear many people say how much they hate it, how they can't wait to get out, or there's way too much drama. I chuckle at that because I never really thought about Crisfield that way. I always viewed it as a close-knit community full of hard working people, a town that has...